I am having a weird week. I haven't felt like writing. The prompts haven't inspired me. Or rather, they've inspired me to feel bad that I have no words to respond. What did I make this year? Can't think of anything but uninspired dinners and boring lunches for the girls' lunchboxes every day. What community am I part of? Not one. I barely even made it to my monthly book club meeting twice this year. I have wished so hard to be part of one but I don't really try to be part of one.
I did have something to say about the "let go" prompt, but I didn't have the opportunity to write that day. I should get around to that one; apparently people aren't necessarily going in order or exactly on the day. I guess I will get to that.
I just feel sad and lost today.
This photo spoke to me today because I feel like I'm sitting here with the ball in my mouth waiting for someone to throw it to me, but I won't give them the ball so they can throw it. (That is how my dog does it. She will only give up the ball if you give her a treat for it, but she REALLY wants you to throw the ball SO BAD, PLEASE PLEASE THROW THE BALL FOR ME.)
So I REALLY don't feel like I can respond to the beautifully different prompt yet. I don't feel beautiful, I don't feel unique, I don't feel like I light people up.
I need to snap out of it.
Oh, Christy. I'm sorry the prompt landed on you at the wrong time. But I'll tell you this: *SO* many people struggled with the beautifully different one. And so many of them said precisely what you said--that they just don't feel that way. It's hard to turn it on just for a prompt, right? And no, people are going out of order and answering days late. There's no prize or badge for doing everything exactly right. It's about your year, not anyone else's mold.
ReplyDeleteI hope you keep going with the prompts. One of these days, one's going to land on you that lights *you* up instead.
Well, I stayed away so long that I didn't even know I had a comment! Thank you, Kim, for the encouraging words. I will definitely try to get back into it.
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